I love life but I don't wanna sink into depression again. :(

Hi,
as you can see from this date, I'm so late in updating. To summarise, I've been having exams and assignments. So glad that my partner and I finished it earlier by 3 days. Can enjoy my holidays earlier and also, she's enjoying herself much in KL.

Will try to update more frequently. Wonder if I should go into beauty blogging. Goodnight!

The Passing

I know I haven't been updating this page lately. I'm so many entries late with photos. Anyway, I've just came back from a funeral. The relative is not directly related to me. It was my mom's cousin's dad who is my grandpa's brother-in-law. 

I've never seen him much before. Maybe 3 times, from one relative's wedding to the next CNY and this year's CNY. The last I saw him was when we were all playing Black Jack. The reason for this post is not about me trying to feel sad and all but I question myself, why do I feel sad when I've never even spoken to him or even directly related to me. Is it because I witnessed a passing? Or the air around me influenced my emotions hence I felt that way.

We were at the Mandai Crematorium. I wonder, during a funeral, is it wise to take photos and videos of the people in mourning? My mom's aunt and uncle were so busy with their cameras that they filmed us crying and taking pictures of all the sad and solemn faces. It kinda got on my nerves at one point cos I felt that they should just focus paying their respect to the dead.

What irritates me was it HAS TO BE a Christian service just because the deceased went to church ONCE and also there was a Pastor in the family. What if he was a free-thinker that he was curious to see what goes on in the church hence the visit and not assumed that he believed in Christ? Christians are a horrible buncha conversion-ists.Why wasn't it a Taoist service or a Buddhist service? Why must it be a Christian service? Why not Catholic? Pfft.

Anyway, will be back again with photos. Gotta re-oil my photoshopping engine. It's rusty now.

Disappeared?

I'm not gone. I just haven't gotten down to renovating my blog. I seriously need help. I have so many things to do. Listing them down will be a horror to me. Furthermore, Chinese New Year is coming. Gotta do some spring cleaning. Dad is back to repaint the house. Also he won't be visiting houses I think because of his job. First was Aunt now him. Wtf la ok. So he not going, we have to think up an excuse for him. *groans*

Thinking about things going on around me used up my brain power. Gonna nap. Ciaos.

Something's wrong?

After the Malacca trip, Kin totally doesn't wanna get involve with Caddy's business anymore. Just like today when I bumped into him on the way to school, I told him about what happened to her last night. She was suffering from stomach upset and he doesn't seem to care one bit. Maybe his patience has already been used up. The tone he used, can really feel that he has already let go of Caddy. I know that he had been telling Caddy what is good and not good for her but some people are the type who have to 'kena' then they will get it.

Her upset stomach could be due to stomach ulcer that could result from over-eating of chilli. I advised her to see a doctor but she gave me that i-die-die-don't-want-to-see-doctor face. Like that how? I wanna help her but like Kin said, she doesn't wanna help herself. Why do I feel hurt when he don't care about her? Also, he suspected she has this Adult attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. Everything also suspect. He suspects the littlest of vibes.

I hate my current assignment. No trouble go find trouble. We're suppose to act as consultants to organsations. Even real consultants are given scenarios but we have to bloody think up of trouble. Stupid. I feel like running away. To Genting. BF's fault. Can I go Genting during my birthday? Anyone wanna tag along? Couples will be good. Don't wanna make anyone feel like the loser.

By the way, new module today. Lecturer's giving off the gay vibe as can see from First Class that gay teacher. Exact same vibe. Funny lecturer. Likes to tell stories aka life experiences. Things starting to look up but then again, all of us are quite demotivated as we started off the term with a big assignment at the back of our heads. We should always start the term with a fresh start, fresh heads. We won't be free till we hit the CNY holiday week.

Off to write a few more sentences for my dumbass assignment.

Hiatus for a while

My addictive song now:

Update:

Something went wrong when I wanna update. Anyway, that wasn't quite my addictive song anymore. There's a song that was there but I didn't see. This song is really really emotional. Love the lyrics. For someone who left or scared to lose. I'm afraid to lose him. T_T Everytime I play this song, I would think I'm the one who went to heaven. So sad right. Haiya gonna cry already la. Stupid song.

Where is the inspiration?

Ok yes I know, I'm back for a few days already but blogging mood not settled in me yet. Still very new to this. Imma try to get use to it and make it a commitment.

So how's everybody? How was your New Year's? I had mine over at BF's friend's place. A quiet affair that he thought was a mistake. We'll do ours this year, alone. New Year's resolution? Not gonna make any. Try to change old habits first before making new ones and then piling everything up.

Will post pics soon. Promise promise.

Also, I'm gonna try to learn Photoshop. Still a noob at it. (Notice I didn't say master when I haven't even fully grasp the whole thing.) Anyway, with that, I have an 8000 words assignment waiting for me to due on 22nd Jan. FML.